Just so it's clear, the majority of the posts I recently posted were not written recently. Most of them were written 5-10 years ago. I have never shared them publicly. Enjoy!

More lame bullshit

I lay down

Fall like the foliage

Into my place of rest

Something unsettling

Being here

Something that has left

The sheets are cold

Where you used to be

The pillows un-dented

No shape from your body

Perfumes resonate off the surface

That sweet smell of you

And I daydream now

Memories all here

When it was just us two

Sleep will not come

Nothing fills the void

Your skin isn’t mine

Your body not on top

Your hair isn’t there

Your lips never touch mine

Your eyes never see me

This waking dream

And endless nightmare

In an empty bed

My heart aches while this passes

I long so much for you

But the dream will be much sweeter

The day that it comes true

I could wait forever

Suspended animation

Just for one more kiss

One more moment, cuddle

In complete bliss

Lies

Yes, my lady

That shadow is gone

The slipping silhouette

Real light shines through

Radiating the truth

I cock my head away

My eyes shrink

And belly aches

I held it in

Released it yesterday

Time not defined

For it is nothing

Yes, I do

You aren’t worth my tears

My biggest fears

You cover your self in fecal truth

Deception

Contraception

I speak your language well

The prey

Look

I look around and see

The nights drag by in agony

And Days have fallen out of memory

Solemn light, and somber time

My ears listen to the hum of life

Ever here but never where

The place I long to be

My lustful eyes prey on flesh

Consume the girl

That I’ve just met

Construct seduction

And I’m fine

My fingers lure

My words compel

Till flowers dew

And passions swell

Take her here

And feed her misery

Burning of chemistry

Reactions kindle when we meet

And move swiftly to her feet

Like a cigarette through the night

Void I feel alone tonight

Without the warmth of another’s light

Love is gone when everything is right

Chaos is necessity

For anything to breath and breed in me

I miss the fire burning hips

I long for strands of ember hair

And ashes day

Conflicting pair

Where is she who makes me prey?

Who hunts me down?

Only to lay

Turn tail and cower under me

Screams her love

Screams her hates

Jumps on me and makes me ache

Eyes that cause my earth to quake

Longs for more and more of me to take

Silent is tonight

Silence marks death to my brain

My morals broken

My body slain

No longer can I fester here

No more can I lie in eternity

Craving hurts

And I must feed

Always a seeker of the peace

But now I see reality

Pain is what I want

And Pain is what I need

Lame bullshit

I wish there was something

Something quite good enough for you

And me, I’m just a body

Whose soul is coming after you

Stuck here in this place

With a smile on my face

Dreaming, wishing you

Time, the fickle thing

No reason in thoughts

Not to my heart

I want to take all the miles and throw them away

I want to run across this country

With you at the end of the race

To know just what your lips taste

And I’m not afraid

Not afraid to fall for you

I want to give you something

To let you know I’m real

Perfect happiness is waiting

I know where it is

It’s sitting next to you

Without a doubt

Not a game

Not one that my heart could take

Without it breaking

Over you

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A newborn river tonight

Water flowing tonight

Carving a new path

Never which you have tred before

Feelings released

From my eyes

They seep

Till the time comes again

One day my friend

I could meet you then

One step

Then this life blows

Skanks

Hey girls

Listen to me

Cause this is for you

Beautiful ladies

With men on their mind

Ive given you worth

And more than my time

But unfaithful hearts

Ain’t worth what I got

Your face is god given

Those lips and dimples

They mean nothing

All the curves

Yes, I love to slide

But you can fuck off

Cause this is my is life

All that material, material girl

Means nothing to me

All that glamour, glamour girl

Sends shivers up my spine

I’d take a girl with half the looks

But double the love

A girl with half the books

But double the time

You are nothing

Nothing comes to mind

Worthless nothing

Something divine

Pretty, petty lady

The world has hands wide open

But me?

Mine are folded in closed

And my words are spoken

I will not drool

I will not follow

Where those other men go

I will not speak so high of you

When you have nothing to show

Your heart must be pure

Your words must be true

You must give yourself to me only

And then I’ll consider you

I love how your hair shines

I love the way you grind

I love the shapes, the pucker

Your eyes and your fuck

But you are nothing when it comes to love

You wander around, heart spread

Too many guys

Too much unsaid

Theres too much beauty in this world

Too many people working towards a fucked up goal

All of it means nothing

When god looks down on you

And sees your heart for what it is

There is no black and white

No right and wrong

There is only love and no love

And this is my song

You bitch

Are miles away

To be my girl

You’ll have to change