Hide your eyes

Hide your eyes

The sun is gone

I can’t look up

Can’t look up

To see the dawn

Hard wired

Electrical

Impulses

Buzzing through

Buzzing through my brain

Of faces

The many faces

I’ve tasted

Long since gone

Lost too long

Once and over

Over and over

Too many times

The shadow of a color

The echoes of a feeling

Reeling and reeling

But grasp

Try and try to grab

And all is past

Sitting in the silent

With the box shining out to me

Writing words I don’t comprehend

And wondering what is to be

Age and maturity

Ripples and waves

To touch

Yes, my fingers crave

Come out of the light

Come out and find me here

This place and life I try to bind

And all the shit I leave behind

Hide your eyes

The sun is bright

I can’t see

Too much space

And air to breath

Smother me

Smother me

Arms wrapped tight around

No where to run

And I‘ll revel in ecstasy

Zombie

This is me

My life is here

Wandering the desert

In search of care

This world is barren

Miles bare

Empty heart’s broken

With radiant glare

Waking each day

The tedious way

That zombie limp

Their brains decayed

This world goes on

Like clockwork we work

One step closer to despair

All their eyes sewn

To see what is really there

Greed replacing empathy

In everything we share

My eyes seem to wander

And my mind ceases

The words escape me

But I utter them to her

Drawn into shapes

The nature of being a man

In the ruins of love

Where the future is far

I can’t help but wonder

Why is it I stare?

Am I all alone?

And what causes this fear?

I’m spreading thin

Air rises like needles

My mouth opens

And they come out to her

And drag her in

Is it always the same?

Dangerous, fateful

Or a never-ending game

Two

And there were two

One to give in

And one to refuse

But it’s not me

I swear it’s not me

That’s talking to you

Something is changing

Splitting deep inside

I am trapped behind

The person I hide

Smoke rises slowly

To ceiling where I reside

And the fuel burns

As it goes down

Where memories die

I’m thinking in a new way

A new way, not the good kind

And my world is ending

But my body will survive

In this twisted form I give

The twisted words I say

I tell them all to you

Inching hearts closer

Bodies sicken

My skin is getting closer

Closer to friction

Come, please come soon

The soul needs release

Passion to make me a fool

Degeneration

Degeneration

Where have all the morals gone?

You think you’ve found all the answers

But then it slips away

While I sit and sing my song

So you take another drink

And pop another pill

Hoping that man will come along

Your dream in reality

The one to fit your bill

Your list is long

No one ever makes it through

When you found a man to be there

Another always comes to you

Superficial is the game

And contradictions what you seek

Friction is a coin toss

A predator each week

Words don’t mean a thing

Just like the air you breathe

Little a heart

Careless for yourself

You only live to bleed

You’ll never know

And never find what you seek

A good thing is too easy

Maturity is too blind

So lets be bare

And open

And never whisper words

The air that leaves our lips

Only in moans and groans

Whispering in the wind

The world is filled with voices
They weave a web of thought
They hum in muddled harmony
Trying to have my words heard
Is like whispering in to the wind

Retired

Someone else always said it better

Or so I've said since these letters retired

I'd given up the pen

And taken up a beer

Until today, when these feelings reappear

Something stirring in this cold old soul

Turmoil boiling spilling out over onto this page

A sharp pain, my sweet old muse

I taste your sweet lips again

The Shell

You fabricate

Your paper mache heart

With the hollow voices

Of the men you love

You subjugate

Loves binding strings

Making something meaningless

You wander

Wonder about what’s beyond

Gather

The looks and stares from everyone

They can’t see

Inside, what is happening

Black blood

Coursing to an empty shell

What once was is gone away