Pit

No one knew what’s down the hole

The center of town, lies a pit

Few dared to tread the edge

Round and brown fades into black

The rock ceases only in the darkness

Kids throw stones, but never hear a sound

Widows weep when they get too close

No one dare venture into the unknown

I was curious, adventurous

I tread the rim, brimming with fear

My desire to find, my drive

The sweat dripped from my brow

My foot slipped, my body fell

The blue escaped my eye

The black soon enveloped it

But I did not cease, it did not end

Instead I turned to see light

Reaching out towards my hand

I grabbed hold, and here I am

What a lovely place

Such a gorgeous view

This leading hand

It belongs to you

Winding Down

Winding down

This is the way

Take another to forget

Take another for today

And I give all that I can

What is it that you demand?

Every wish, my command

Washing cycles in my stomach

This is a sick, sick game

Go chasing after a dream

Watch it come crashing down

To burn in the pile

Lit years ago, with ashes knee high

Winding down again

This is my way

Take another for the thoughts

Take another for the pain

Little round candies

Marked with little letters

Wash it down

With a scent that burns my nostrils

But what beautiful colors

You must see

As they form expressionist art

On the walls and upholstery

This is the way you disappear

And repentance for all my years

It was all leading up to this

Winding down

The only way

Why are you still here?

What is it that you fear?

Or is it me?

Yes that’s it

It’s me, isn’t it?

What crawls under me?

Takes over everything

And moves my body

I’m going down

I think I see the end

Some silhouette beckons me

And it’s you that I must bare

So I take another one

Take another one for you

And I’ll meet you there

It burns, winding down

Oh how much it burns

But this will save me

I am prepared

Embracing you is darkness

I am aware

The ash falls off my stick

I drink another lick

Winding down

I’ll meet you there

She will save me

I’ll meet you there

Darkness

Darkness feels

From ear to ear

Cold and warm

Soft and numb

Flying freely into space

What have I become?

Stars pass through my eyes

And light exits through my brain

Time stands still in my ear

Tasting all the drops of rain

The world is upon me once again

And what are hearts?

Not meant to break

And what is love?

Not meant to take

Will someone please, walk me down this way?

The never-ending corridor

White walls

With infinite doors

No ceiling

And no floors

Walk with me, hand in mine

And show me where I can find time

My hand on the knob

Turn it for me and open wide

With your lonely key

You’ve kept inside

What a world behind this door

Hell or paradise

I’m not sure

Depression in expressive waves

Dimly lit and Fading away

Invoking all emotion

The motions law that you made

Gravity is something gray

My heart slows to a shallow beat

I pull the ground from my feet

And I find that no one is here but me

Love is a world far away

Passion exists only today

Chemical seduction

My body’s abduction

A natural imbalanced high

Give me my drug

And Kill the pain

Straight from to vein

And to the brain

Addiction bleeds from the heart

Spilling out across the sea

The door opens from behind

And once again, I know me

Darkness feels warm and home

Alone in space again I go

Microcosm in my mind

The heart dies with the fading stars

The mind goes with each passing day

Alone to float across

An empty shell that once

One day maybe something more

Till you come out

And push me through the door

What remains?

What words can I say?

When the right ones can’t escape

From my ticking mind

Echoes of my heart

I’d pop two of you

But it’s hard to swallow

A drug much needed tonight

For my hands to follow

Truth to me

Is only as I see

In everyone’s eyes

Their living dream

Delirium

It goes round and round

My fingers drag you from the ground

From dirt to my heart

The spaces pull apart

And I have nowhere left to run

Truth to me

Is only as I see

The future I make

Was yours to keep

But it’s all twisted now

Turned upside down

A lonely night

A loaded gun

Words of caliber

Pierce my flesh

Whatever is left

You can have the rest

My anarchy

My little queen

You are my chaos

And my insanity

This night again

On my knees

Noose tied high

Around the rising star

Just on the horizon

Bring a new day

A new dawn on me

Forever shine that light

Eternally

And you can have what’s left of me

trance

Trance

Enchantress

Take a chance tonight

Grasses bend and wave

Smoke plays with the moon

That light coming through

From where its arms can’t reach

Gray and blue

God has lit a trillion candles

Flames flicker off the mantle

The scent of wood perfumes

While its warmth consumes

Under cover

Where skin slides so smooth

Whispering words

I can’t quite make from you

Something says you’re sorry

Others say I love you too

Are we dreaming?

What’s happening in this quiet room?

Laying in dark

My eyes closed

And it feels like I’m not alone

My eyes won’t open

My body can’t let it go

Just one more moment

To lay here with you

I can feel the hair

Brush across my face

I know my lips are dry

But why is it you I taste?

Hide your eyes

Hide your eyes

The sun is gone

I can’t look up

Can’t look up

To see the dawn

Hard wired

Electrical

Impulses

Buzzing through

Buzzing through my brain

Of faces

The many faces

I’ve tasted

Long since gone

Lost too long

Once and over

Over and over

Too many times

The shadow of a color

The echoes of a feeling

Reeling and reeling

But grasp

Try and try to grab

And all is past

Sitting in the silent

With the box shining out to me

Writing words I don’t comprehend

And wondering what is to be

Age and maturity

Ripples and waves

To touch

Yes, my fingers crave

Come out of the light

Come out and find me here

This place and life I try to bind

And all the shit I leave behind

Hide your eyes

The sun is bright

I can’t see

Too much space

And air to breath

Smother me

Smother me

Arms wrapped tight around

No where to run

And I‘ll revel in ecstasy

Zombie

This is me

My life is here

Wandering the desert

In search of care

This world is barren

Miles bare

Empty heart’s broken

With radiant glare

Waking each day

The tedious way

That zombie limp

Their brains decayed

This world goes on

Like clockwork we work

One step closer to despair

All their eyes sewn

To see what is really there

Greed replacing empathy

In everything we share

My eyes seem to wander

And my mind ceases

The words escape me

But I utter them to her

Drawn into shapes

The nature of being a man

In the ruins of love

Where the future is far

I can’t help but wonder

Why is it I stare?

Am I all alone?

And what causes this fear?

I’m spreading thin

Air rises like needles

My mouth opens

And they come out to her

And drag her in

Is it always the same?

Dangerous, fateful

Or a never-ending game

Two

And there were two

One to give in

And one to refuse

But it’s not me

I swear it’s not me

That’s talking to you

Something is changing

Splitting deep inside

I am trapped behind

The person I hide

Smoke rises slowly

To ceiling where I reside

And the fuel burns

As it goes down

Where memories die

I’m thinking in a new way

A new way, not the good kind

And my world is ending

But my body will survive

In this twisted form I give

The twisted words I say

I tell them all to you

Inching hearts closer

Bodies sicken

My skin is getting closer

Closer to friction

Come, please come soon

The soul needs release

Passion to make me a fool

Degeneration

Degeneration

Where have all the morals gone?

You think you’ve found all the answers

But then it slips away

While I sit and sing my song

So you take another drink

And pop another pill

Hoping that man will come along

Your dream in reality

The one to fit your bill

Your list is long

No one ever makes it through

When you found a man to be there

Another always comes to you

Superficial is the game

And contradictions what you seek

Friction is a coin toss

A predator each week

Words don’t mean a thing

Just like the air you breathe

Little a heart

Careless for yourself

You only live to bleed

You’ll never know

And never find what you seek

A good thing is too easy

Maturity is too blind

So lets be bare

And open

And never whisper words

The air that leaves our lips

Only in moans and groans

Whispering in the wind

The world is filled with voices
They weave a web of thought
They hum in muddled harmony
Trying to have my words heard
Is like whispering in to the wind

Retired

Someone else always said it better

Or so I've said since these letters retired

I'd given up the pen

And taken up a beer

Until today, when these feelings reappear

Something stirring in this cold old soul

Turmoil boiling spilling out over onto this page

A sharp pain, my sweet old muse

I taste your sweet lips again

The Shell

You fabricate

Your paper mache heart

With the hollow voices

Of the men you love

You subjugate

Loves binding strings

Making something meaningless

You wander

Wonder about what’s beyond

Gather

The looks and stares from everyone

They can’t see

Inside, what is happening

Black blood

Coursing to an empty shell

What once was is gone away